Dilemma ..

2day din manage to go class again .. woke up with fever n vomit for no reasons ..

After tat ..felt a lot better.. went to Ipoh hospital with Jess, Alicia and Carmen .. Jess have to see doc for her eye .. there goes the whole day ..haha ..

Walked BB out today .. she kinda lazy to walk.. so cute ..

Just now went over to Alicia's place to copy some CRM notes .. n asked her to teach me bout the prints calculation ..

Back home feed BB n went out walkin BB .. it was kinda tiring ..

Been thinkin tonite ..mayb i shouldnt force u  .. mayb i should just not stay with u all .. i dun understand u all .. the reasons y i dun wan2 move into sing hua coz harvard gives me the feeling of home .. i really do wan2 stay there with everyone .. wit u .. but today u disappoint me ..

I m sayin this here bcoz i really dunno hw to say it straight to u ..u were the one who suggested we stay in a room together .. when i m ok with it now .. u withdraw urself away ..

I know is very sudden after everything tat happened .. but i really wan2 stay wit u .. spends all my time wit u ..

u said u suddenly wan2 stay alone in a room .. u said u prefer sleepin alone .. then wat about u now already used to slp with me on a bed .. is it so hard .. i really dun understand ..

I m really afraid .. afraid tat all i doin nw ll eventually hurts myself again .. pls proof me wrong .. i nt forcing u to make decision .. but i really wan2 know why ..

Why cant we like other loving couple ..living together .. if u think i m burden then just let me know .. i m so tired now .. seriously i m .. tryin so hard to makes everything like it used to be ..

I hate it when i m missin u  .. i hate it when i start lovin u back like how i used to be .. coz i m really afraid ..