Future ..

Maybe this is worth .. 

  "For yesterday is but a dream,
  And tomorrow only a vision,
  But today, well-lived, makes every yesterday
  A dream of happiness,
  And every tomorrow
  A vision of hope and joy.
  Look well then to this day.'

 

Have faith in You

Can say .. this is one of the poem that makes me realize hopes .. 

'If you can keep your head, while all about you
 Are losing theirs and blaming it on you ;
 If you can trust yourselft when others doubt you,
 But  make allownances for thier doubting  too ;

'If you can wait and nnot tired of waiting,
 Or being lied about and not deal in lies,
 Or ebing hated and not gove way to hating,
 Nor yet look too good, nor talk too wise ;

'If you can dream and not make dreams your Master,
 If you can think and not make thought your aim;
 If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
 And treat those two imposters just the same;

'If you can make one heap of all your winnings
 And risk it in one turn of pitvh-and-toss,
 And lose and start again at the beginning,
 And not breathe a word about your loss;

'If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
 Twisted by knaves to make a trap fro fools,
 Or see the things you give your life to, broken
 And stop to bulid them up again with worn-out tools;

'If you can force your heart and nerves and sinews
 To serve their turn long after they are done,
 And so hold on when there is nothing in you
 Except the will which says to them, "Hold on!"

'If you can talk with crowds and keep your virute,
 Or walk with Kings and not lose the common touch;
 If neither foes or loving friends can hurt you

 And all men count with you, but none too much ;

'If you can fill the unforgiving minute
 WIth sixty seconds worth of distance run,
 Yours is the Easth and everything that's in it
 And, what is more, you'll be a aman, My Son!'

28 April 2010 ..

Back to Kampar today .. seriously .. dun wan2 come back at all ..nt bcoz of my family or everything in Penang .. but is my life in Kampar .. i m gettin very tired of every single thing .. things are nt at the way it is .. problems surronding me .. results sucks .. everything screwed up .. blame no one but me ,,

Results.. i all mine to be blame..i din try my best at all .. i put relationship above my studies this time .. i dunno why n i dunno how i do so .. guess i just fell into deep shit .. i disappointed my daddy n mummy again .. i m sry ..

But i ll do my very best for the upcomin sems .. i ll nt disappoint u both again ..

At home, i read a book .. found a few meaningful poems in it .. but can i used it ? can i able to stand alone ? id cant .. No more ..

Today .. a very good fren of mine .. gave me a lot of advises .. follow my heart ..
Another fren .. posted this .. "If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back they never ask you to"

And the last fren, said this.. *you never appreciate ur life..
*because the life u want can't be ur life now..
*when you din learn to appreciate..
*urself
*that is not a life.. and..
*u will lost soon
*never live for someone that never appreciate you..
*so, if u don't appreciate urself..
*who wil?

Honestly and seriously, i ll still live for tat person.. even thou he will nt appreciate me anymore, even thou he dun love me no more .. but i dun care .. coz i still do love him .. living everyday to see him smiles .. makes my day ..

2day really sucks !

hUGs

I m terribly down .. breakin down very soon .. not at this moment please ...

baby where are u ..

i need a HUG !!

Crying ..

I know .. i shouldnt be crying .. just i cant bare it no more .. heart is so weak .. so pain .. so hurt .. 

i hate arguing wit u over silly stuffs .. over the house issue over the redang trip and everything .. is just so hurt ..

u always say i dunno wat is in ur mind for the past few month .. how would i know if u din tell me ?

i hate it when every morning the 1st thing i search for is my phone .. to see ur morning msg .. i hate it when i find there is none .. i knew it yet i still go on the same thing over n over again ..

I hate it when u ask why i wan2 make everyone around me happy when i myself not ? Well, tis is me .. tat';s is me from the beginning ..

I hate it when my tears rolls down my cheek .. i hate it everytime i cry .. i hate it when u ignores me thou u know i m on9 .. i just hate the new u ..i tryin to accept it but is just so hard .. i wan the old u back ..

i hate the new u tat dun love me .. dun bothers bout me .. dun find me .. dun care at all anymore .. i hate it when u dun come find me anymore like u used to do . i hate it ..

i hate everythin now .. my life .. myself .. i hate hidin my emotions .. i hate it .. i hate it when i cry u walked away .. i hate it .. this is all tat makes me cry all the time .. i hate it when durin exams my thoughts went somewhere else .. i hate it tat i misses u when u don .. 

i really misses u a lot .. dont u know tat? Dont u know how much i needed u ?

If one day .. my disappearance ll make u happy .. then tat day should come .. tat day will be the day where tis blog where all my feelings are will be gone ..

All out of love - Air Supply

Was talkin to meow .. suddenly we started to sing .. haha .. n tis song pops into our mind .. so ngam our emotions now ..

Dedicated to Meow n myself..

Air Supply - All out of love .. 

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know   (chorus)
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong   I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?   And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone   (chorus)
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
(repeat chorus)

Forgive me ..

I tried .. i m still trying .. but i cant fake it anymore .. no more .. no more lies to myself ..

Tonite .. tis moments .. i break down once again .. i cant slp .. i cant study .. i m done ..

love is so real .. yet so sad .. i saw some stars tonite .. wishing tat u ll forgive n forget .. wishing tat everything is just a dream .. tat when i woke up .. we r still the loving couple we used to be .. 

i know i m stupid .. tat i dunno how to express myself .. stupid tat i hurt u till u gave up on me .. but baby pls .. i just wan to see ur smile .. to see u happy .. to appreciate me more ..

why can the time i almost gave up ..u held on to me ..  u pulled me back up .. but why now .. when u givin me ..u r not letting me held on to u .. u say it not worthy .. is worthy .. to me is worthy .. from last time till now .. is worthy ..pls .. 

i need u  .. i cant live without u anymore .. i need u .. 

smiles to me are so fake now .. i dun wan2 smile nor laugh anymore .. i dun wan2 fake it anymroe .. but my tears are real .. they cant stop flowing .. 

i know how hurt it is ..pls .. love me back .. give me another chance .. give our relationship another chance ..

pls .. i really cant held myself any longer anymore .. tis is the point where i cant anymore ..forgive me pls .. 

give our relationship another chance to continue our story .. please baby please ..

我爱 他 - Ding Dang

This is my recent fav song .. is very meaningful .. love it deeply .. 

I present to you ..

我爱他 by Ding Dang

他的镜框留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾 是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白 该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂

我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

And for english or pin yin translation .. 

TA DE JING KUANG LIU ZAI, MOU YI JIE CHE XIANG
DI XIA TIE LI DE FENG, BI HUI YI HAI ZHONG
ZHENG ZUO CHENG SHI YI ZHI DENG ZHE WO
YOU YI DUAN GAN QING HAI ZAI PIAO BO

DUI TA WEI YI YI HAN, SHI FEN SHOU NA TIAN
WO BEN TENG DE YAN LEI, DOU TING BU XIA LAI
RUO NA YI KE CHONG LAI, WO BU KU
RANG TA ZHI DAO WO KE YI HEN HAO

WO AI TA, HONG HONG LIE LIE ZUI FENG KUANG
WO DE MENG, HEN HEN SUI GUO QUE BU HUI WANG
CENG WEI TA, XIANG XIN MING TIAN JIU SHI WEI LAI
QING JIE YOU DUO HUAI, DOU BU KEN XING LAI

WO AI TA, DIE DIE ZHUANG ZHUANG DAO JUE WANG
WO DE XIN, SHEN SHEN SHANG GUO QUE BU HUI WANG
WO HE TA, BU ZAI SHU YU ZHE GE DI FANG
ZUI CHU DE TIAN TANG, ZUI ZHONG DE HUANG TANG

RU GUO HAI YOU YI HAN, YOU ZEN MA YANG NE
SHANG LE TONG LE DONG LE, JIU NENG HAO LE MA
CENG JING YI KAO BI CI DE JIAN BANG
RU JIN GE ZI ZAI REN HAI LIU LANG

WO AI TA, HONG HONG LIE LIE ZUI FENG KUANG
WO DE MENG, HEN HEN SUI GUO QUE BU HUI WANG
TAO BU KAI, AI YUE SHEN YUE HU XIANG SHANG HAI
YUE SHEN DE YI LAI, YUE DUO DE KONG BAI, GAI ZEN MA QU AI

WO AI TA, HONG HONG LIE LIE ZUI FENG KUANG
WO DE MENG, HEN HEN SUI GUO QUE BU HUI WANG
CENG WEI TA, XIANG XIN MING TIAN JIU SHI WEI LAI
QING JIE YOU DUO HUAI, DOU BU KEN XING LAI

WO AI TA, DIE DIE ZHUANG ZHUANG DAO JUE WANG
WO DE XIN, SHEN SHEN SHANG GUO QUE BU HUI WANG
WO HE TA, BU ZAI SHU YU ZHE GE DI FANG
ZUI CHU DE TIAN TANG, ZUI ZHONG DE HUANG TANG

RU GUO HAI YOU YI HAN, SHI FEN SHOU NA TIAN
WO BEN TENG DE YAN LEI, DOU TING BU XIA LAI
RUO NA YI KE CHONG LAI, WO BU KU
RANG TA ZHI DAO WO KE YI HEN HAO

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1AuVNRbWyjM 

Celion Dion - When i Need you ..

Suddenly this song is in my mind .. just love it .. been playing a lot in my mind ..

Just to share with all my readers .. enjoy ...

Celion Dion - When i need you ...

When I need you
Just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you
Its only a heart beat away

When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day

Miles and miles of empty space in
between us
A telephone can't take the place of your
smile
But you know I won't be traveling
forever
Its cold out, but hold out and do like I do


When I need you
Just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you babe
Its only a heartbeat away

It's not easy when the road is your driver
Honey, that's a heavy load that we bear
But you know I wont be traveling a
lifetime
It's cold out but hold out and do like I do
Oh I need you

When I need you
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day

When I need you
Just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you
Its only a heart beat away

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OglNPNPWvSo&feature=related 

Days ..

Sry bloggy .. for not b with you for so long .. been busy i guess ... or mayb .. not in my mood to blog ..
or should i say .. there are a lot of things tat i cant blog in here .. sad case huh ..

just back from CC actually .. played the new map - The Passing with the usual ppl .. hahah .. except the second round .. is with Emi n Ash .. is kinda fun .. no stress at all .. haahh ...

Too many emotions been goin around lately .. kinda tired .. assignment marks sucks like shit .. makes me gave up on the exams .. yes i know .. it's terrible ..

Feel like goin for a drink now .. make myself hang over .. i missed it .. last week was fun .. went for the voodoo boss bday party .. is was so fun .. free flow of beers n liquors .. everything is on the house .. how nice .. songs were nice yet i cant dance .. dress too short .. haiz .. nvm .. enjoy myself a lot .. met new ppl .. n was too high .. haha ..

Misses tat time .. these few days i m too stressed out .. makes me wan2 go for drinks .. haiz .. wat is happening to me .. hahaah .. goin crazy ..