Been quite some time since i update my blog .. guess i m kinda used to it tat only updated my blogs with my emotions .. especially those i kept in heart ..
Now, i dun really have this keeping emotions in myself .. been talk things out to Baby .. guess this helps me a lot .. but yet .. there are still things that is unable to be mentioned out ..
Last nite .. i slept off earlier .. Baby said he wanted to study .. he tugged me to bed .. but i din really manage to doze off after some time .. been a while since i had difficulty in breathing .. had it last night .. din want to tell Baby cause don't want to disturb him studying .. guess i been disturbing baby from studying ..
how come i felt tat my existence in him is a burden for him .. i dunno what m i thinking now .. haiz ..
yes .. i m stressed out of exam .. i hate it .. i felt like crying out .. but every time i wanted to do so .. i had to stop myself .. i don't want to let Baby see i cry .. i hate myself for doing so .. i m so stressed !
