I guess no matter how our arguments starts.. it always hurts.. badly..
how would you feel if you been calling a person over many times and yet to picked up ? Nervous ? Worry ? Anxious ?
Well, I am anxious and worry.. Are you sleeping ? You must be i guess.. You been very tired after the run today and outing with your friend. Is ok.. I will go home and wake you up and we go for dinner together..
You called back.. when I am the entrance to the house.. And your assumption to my tone.. hurts.. being blamed and chop guilty and caused of arguments.
I guess you never know the feeling of a girl.. alone walking home in a crowded place with those people looking at you like gonna eat you up.. those eyes following you..
Being me.. saying not being understanding.. saying I always angry and make faces whenever you are out with your friends.. I admit. Once or twice.. when I really dont like it and need you.. Why I dont like it ? You always go to the places where I wanted to go since beginning but you never bring me.. You spend money with your friends and ended up saying spend too much.. When with me.. sometimes you always say dont spend too much..
Like today.. I was not angry at all that you were out with your friends.. I angry cause you forget.. i angry cause you ignore.. and I angry cause you misunderstood..
I know I should be blamed for working every Sundays and Saturdays for these 2 months.. I m sorry but it's not my choice. But you should know too.. I understand that you are not working on weekends.. that's y on weekends I never work too late and back to you on time..
Yet.. this all happens.. Misunderstanding makes me so tired.. Our relationship is going down isn't it ?
Forgive me for being possessive or obsessive if that's what you think.. Sorry for loving you too much.. Sorry for hoping that the first person I come back to is you but not an empty room.. Sorry for hoping that right after work the person I will run into the arms is yours.. Sorry for being the person you sees every time you got home and off work..
I guess.. it really hurts this time.. so painful that tears just cant flow..
