It's been a while

I have lost count.. the times I have been crying myself to sleep at night since the day it happens..

Things are so messed up now.. Yes.. another month and i am gone.. leaving my family and head on the SG.. for my future .. for our future.. 

I have lost count too.. how many arguments we had and been through.. how many time we been fighting over the same issue.. how many time have it been ignored and avoided..

i totally lost count.. 

there are so many things i wished it will not happen.. sometimes, i really wish that you would understand.. since the day i nod my head and promised you.. that i ll go to SG together with you, i have already let go of all.. my dreams.. all the things i wanted..
and I have already really moved on .. building a new dreams with you..

yes, you might have sacrifice a lot for me.. haven't i too ? yet, in a relationship, it's not about who sacrifice the most.. 

i dunno what else to say nor to tell you,, I learnt that .. next time.. I ll just keep my mouth shut and just keep all my problems to myself.. this is what i learn from you..

i m used to shutting myself inside my own..