Sorry for leaving you alone here so long..
Been in SG for almost 2 months now.. till now.. I am not sure whether do i make the right decision.. but what I can expect now.. stay strong and live to it.. I have my mission to be accomplished.. or we.. I guess now I am wondering..
So many things have changed since we came here.. maybe I am the only one realizing it.. maybe I just being too sensitive..
Hope this wont be the reason that we cant hold each other's hand till death do us apart.. I really wish we do.. walking down the rest of our life together.. I just hope.. I being too sensitive..
Today wasn't a happy day at all.. I know you wanna go back but then, you said is ok.. if I don't wanna go back.. since the morning.. all I see from you is emo.. down.. not uttering words to me.. not talking to each other.. seems like being forced out...You promised me.. yet you act the other way round..
Staying here doesn't bring happiness to me.. I am not getting any stronger.. I am far apart from my beloved families and my best friends. You are the only one here right next to me for me to depend on.. you are the one here for me to rely on.. to cry on your shoulder..to be pampered by you like how you used to be..
but..
all now just nothing... crying now means I will cry alone in silent.. crying over missing my family.. sobbing silently.. I understand that you missed your family too.. Sorry but I am not as strong as you..
Heart broken too many times.. makes me almost give up..yet.. I still hold on and stay strong..
for us..
I really wish that we are back to where we are.. the coldness of love from you sometimes.. really creeps me out.. really makes me wanna let go of everything if that is the only way to get you back..
What am I gonna do without you ? Who am I without you ?
I guess.. I am living in our past still.. wishing the most love and care out of you like last time..
Sorry..
