What can i do ..

Again .. baby slammed his laptop .. knowing baby's temper is bad .. wat can i do ..

honestly speaking .. it scares me most of the time .. seeing baby so frustrated with his angry look on his face .. it's pretty scary ..

wonder wat can i do .. really wish i can do something .. haiz ..

Gloomy Sunday ..

Today just have this mood to listen to gloomy sunday .. thou i found a better version of it .. the best .. is in english ..

Gloomy Sunday - Sarah McLachlan

Sunday is Gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you

Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you
Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there'll be flowers and prayers that are sad,
I know, let them not weep,
Let them know that I'm glad to go

Death is no dream,
For in death I'm caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday

Dreaming
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of
My heart
Dear

Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday

Gloomy Sunday - Sarah McLachlan

Hmmm..

I felt useless .. i m doubting myself to become a good gf .. doubts tat makes me think n think n think .. thinking how to be a better gf tat i was never had ..

Today baby's mood doesnt seems rite .. especially now .. after back from basketball game or even b4 which i cant figure out .. 

i wonder wat is happenin to baby .. wat went wrong .. baby has been keeping himself closed .. how and wat can i do to make baby open up to me ..

felt so useless ..

27 June 2010 ..

Sry for the late update of bloggy .. been a while since i last updated .. went to langkawi recently with baby, anson and  chua .. din drink much .. but spend a lot ..

Watever it is .. tat is nt the main topic in here .. wat is memorable is the date 27 June 2010 .. where it had become our official date for me n baby .. thou the actual was supposed to be 6 June 2010 .. 

Under the honour of the sunset at the tanjung rhu beach .. is where he stands and propose .. how the sunset and the sea became our witness of the day we were officially together ..

A day which is a head start of everything in my life .. a new love which i appreciated .. which i learned to b more mature .. thanks baby for showing me tat .. tat i m not alone ..