Crying ..

I know .. i shouldnt be crying .. just i cant bare it no more .. heart is so weak .. so pain .. so hurt .. 

i hate arguing wit u over silly stuffs .. over the house issue over the redang trip and everything .. is just so hurt ..

u always say i dunno wat is in ur mind for the past few month .. how would i know if u din tell me ?

i hate it when every morning the 1st thing i search for is my phone .. to see ur morning msg .. i hate it when i find there is none .. i knew it yet i still go on the same thing over n over again ..

I hate it when u ask why i wan2 make everyone around me happy when i myself not ? Well, tis is me .. tat';s is me from the beginning ..

I hate it when my tears rolls down my cheek .. i hate it everytime i cry .. i hate it when u ignores me thou u know i m on9 .. i just hate the new u ..i tryin to accept it but is just so hard .. i wan the old u back ..

i hate the new u tat dun love me .. dun bothers bout me .. dun find me .. dun care at all anymore .. i hate it when u dun come find me anymore like u used to do . i hate it ..

i hate everythin now .. my life .. myself .. i hate hidin my emotions .. i hate it .. i hate it when i cry u walked away .. i hate it .. this is all tat makes me cry all the time .. i hate it when durin exams my thoughts went somewhere else .. i hate it tat i misses u when u don .. 

i really misses u a lot .. dont u know tat? Dont u know how much i needed u ?

If one day .. my disappearance ll make u happy .. then tat day should come .. tat day will be the day where tis blog where all my feelings are will be gone ..