19 more days ..

Everyday.. i m telling myself..

i m ok i m ok and i ll be ok..

i just wanna be strong just for another 19 days..

It's so hard for me.. my emotions and my heart is breaking inside me..

any minutes tears will just flow.. but i tell myself.. i m ok.. just to resist my tears and just to be ok in front of everyone..

Finals is in 2 weeks.. i m freak out.. i m so stress.. i have no confidence at all.. nor for tomorrow presentation.. for all fucking three years.. i never been this stress.. this nervous.. this freak out.. 

i called mummy today.. hearing her voice makes me wanna just cry my heart out.. but i know if i do.. they ll get worry.. so i just keep it to my heart.. it's so suffering..

i just wanted to show to them who i care and love that i m strong and i m ok.. dun need to worry for me.. i ll be ok..

all these stress.. is really killing me.. i dun wanna to be blamed on for screwing up tomorrow's fyp presentation.. shalini presented so well.. me.. i was just like never present before.. i freak out...  

this sem.. this finals exam.. really freaks me out.. i m so scare what if i forget everything that i studied for the finals on tat day.. i really freak out.. everyone keep saying i can and exam is nothing for me.. but who really knows what is in my mind? that i m so scare off...

i just wanted to be strong for another 19 days.. after that i can go home to my family and baby..  i just wanted to be strong.. be ok..