Yet another day ..

Yet another tiring day .. nt bcoz i having classes or doin stuff .. It's Thursday .. my free day .

Just haven been sleeping well these 2 days .. is fucking tiring .. cant slp .. too many things wonder in my mind ..

I made a decision .. dunno whether is right or wrong .. but i hope i wont regret ..

too many things happened lately .. and bcoz of that .. i have changed .. i have changed into someone new .. someone who is tough n independent .. someone who dun shed tears anymore over small little silly stuff ..

I m tired of crying over things n emotions tat u cant understand ..

You now is the one tat starting to appreciate things when u r at the pinch of losing me .. only now u realize hw hurt i was n i how i was feelings .. put no blame on others .. the blame is on me ..

I tried my very best for the past few weeks to not give up .. i tried my very hard to stay beside u .. but then .. tat time u make me feels tat is nt worthy ..

Things that u do .. words that u said .. is the things tat make me decide .. makes me bcome matured n serious bout life .. makes me tough n independent .. sadness makes me learn ..

Now u tell me u understand how i felt .. how sad i m n how hurt my heart was .. but honestly to sad .. i no longer felt all tat anymore .. i let it b n gave up weeks ago .. i m really tired of crying .. now i m grown up .. i wan to b tough ... no more crying ..

Chances are given over n over again yet u nvr did realize .. taken things for granted .. nw only u realize when u r losin me .. i close my heart but i open back .. given last chance to u and also a chance to me .. hoping there is somethin there to see .. I remembered all the time we had .. all the sweet memories .. all the things u done for me .. but i also do remembered all the tears tat drop coz of u ..

so now .. to say .. hope i din make the wrong decision n hurt myself again ..