I m tired .. .

I dunno wat is happenin to us.. mayb they are rite.. mayb i m too dependent on u..

you said it.. it just 3 days.. take things slowly.. well baby.. to say.. is not a 3 days problem.. is happened before n u din realize bout it..

i have been cryin these 3 days.. i really really very tired now..

You dun understand how i feel.. you dun get wat i mean.. you are making me feel tat everything u do is for the sake of it.. honestly.. tis is wat i felt ..

i felt u dun miss me anymore like u used to do.. i dun feel the love from you like i used to feel.. mayb is my fault.. being so dependent on you.. chokin your life.. this is how i felt.. i try to tell you but u just cant understand.. i dun feel my importance anymore to u.. i dun felt i belong in your heart anymore like i used to be..

Mayb i m thinkin too much.. mayb i take things seriously.. but baby.. this is life.. tis is hw it supposed to be

I will never stop you from doin things u like.. but please.. be fair to me too.. pls think of me too sometimes.. please put me as important s your games or watever..

Tonite.. is the nite where i cried the most.. i thought everything is gonna change.. like you said.. is a new start .. let's start all over again.. but unfortunatel .. things are still the same..

you always say u r sry.. u say u ll change.. but.. wat's the point when u dun even understand hw i feel n wat i mean.. wat's the point when u dun even realize about it..

I understand much tat during your working hour .. you ll b busy so i din make efforts to msg u .. i patiently wait till u off work .. only then i msg u .. i patiently waited u to go home after ur game or watever u doin just to hear your voice n just to talk to u ..

I know u are nt the guy tat can talk on the phone.. i understand tat very well.. but tat's the only way where i can able to talk to u .. you said we can chat thru msn.. but dun u realize it tat.. the only time u can b on msn is when u work.. which most of tat time i ll be in class..

You dun know how suffering i m these 3 days.. the problem is not tat u are far away from me or wat.. is how much i misses u n wan2 talk to u but u just dun understand..

When u msg me this morning.. i was really happy.. when u called just now.. i was just so so happy.. there are so much things i wan2 talk to u bout.. i thought.. we are startin all over again.. but the happiness was not long .. u told me u ll call me back when u reach home.. when u did.. u tell me tat u r sleepy and wan2 go to bed.. at that time.. i really dun wan2 say anything anymore .. i m just so tired.. u just wont get it n understand how i feel..

Why cant u put urself in my shoe n feel how i feel ?

I m the one who ll run away from these kind of problems..because i m afraid.. there is a fear in me tat makes me wan2 run away.. run away from tis relationship.. I m very tired.. to the extend tat i really wanted to give an end our story.. really wan2 put a fullstop there..

but i cant.. i know i cant.. i love u too much to let go.. i just cant..

I wanted to be tough.. i dun want to cry anymore tears.. It's just too painful for me.. being in the condition where i no longer felt the love form you.. I really miss all the time we used to spend together.. spending hours in the car talking almost bout anything n everything.. or lying down on the bed having our pillow talk.. i really miss it.. Even now we cant do so.. but still i really hope even thru the phone we can still do the same.. but is ok.. i understand tat you nt the guy tat can talk on the phone.. i ll understand.. there is no point forcing u s in the end.. i ll b the one crying.. i ll b the one hurt.. so is ok now..

Tomorrow is gonna b a new start for me.. i m goin to learn to b independent.. goin to learn to b tough.. going to learn to close my eyes in our relationship.. i ll try to do so.. try not to think of u so much.. try to miss u so much anymoe.. i dun want to cry anymore tears..